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Yeah so today was cool. Me and my family and the great toxic went to point pleasant just for the hell of it. We ate ice cream and went in this creepy fun house that really scared me. and ummm we walked on the beach and ran away from the waves that were really cold. and i took pictures that i would put up if i could figure out how cause im just stupid like that. and and um i saw some really pretty boys. and we played the vibrating snowmobile game. and thats it i think. oh yeah we saw where the stage was when we say vendetta red there and it brought back good memories.<3
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[12 Mar 2005|12:21pm] |
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So yes im back finally. My pass yesterday was good. I got home i took a shower, i straightend my hair. Tara and her grandma took me to bertuccis and i was very happy. Staying at a mental insitution didnt really help me it was me who helped myself. One thing i learned is that i need to love myself before i love anyone else. and that lesson i needed so bad. anyway i did have some fun at the crazy house and made some new friend and had some fun times.
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-Staff: SCOTT IS THERE ANY REASON WHY THESE GIRLS ARE SLEEPING ON THE FLOOR??
Scott(other staff): wha..
STAFF: GIRLS GET UP
JEN AND ME : SLEEPOVER!!!
-CODE BLUE IN THE LESBIAN UNIT
-sliding down the halls when we close the important fire doors then running in our room shutting off the light and jumping in bed and having delaura kick our door open and scream who shut um
-The 9 yr old back kid who taught me a really dirty song and had a teddy bear named toby
-Moo baby moo, whores go moo
-yeah just go ask the autistick girl who tried to poison her mom and eat your dog...RAAAAA
-DAN...and...the...pink...shirt...and...his...vibrating...waterbed...oh baby
-Flashing the camera in the hall
- Keara: katie your my boo
-Em your popped my coldstone cherry!!
-Scottie 2 hottie
(and 11 yr old): TALK TO THE FUCKING HAND
-Slob on my knob like corn on the cob
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Christines party was so much fun. We played laser tag and definetely broke the rules but thats ok because we are so cool. Like z said me and tara are still 5 yrs old because we rode on this little merry go round it was awesome. So then we went back to christines house and The Pennyroyals came. Tara kissed the pedophile. The pennyroyals were so cute. They were great. Then we left and i stayed at garys with shelby. We got in and mark was just like... you dont come home at 1 you come home at 3. He was drunk and it was pretty funny. Then i went home and went to the mall with tara. we bought these lighters and lighter fluid and we set my sink on fire accidently. Tara stayed over and we had this huge kill my brother fight and it was fun and then we fell asleep in a huge pile of blankets. Then on sunday christine tara my mom and i went to nyc. It was soo much fun. We took the train in and there were alot of funny moments. bleh. so today in princeton house d got discharged cause she kept lighting my matches. so that made me sad. but oh well.
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[16 Feb 2005|09:14pm] |
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ROAR my throat hurts like a mother fucker. It sucks. I didn't go to princeton house today. Tomorow is christines party so im excited about that. bleh. I got a letter today from vernon he drew a picture of us together and a valentines card and a letter. It was really sweet.
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[13 Feb 2005|04:02pm] |
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Ska is dead was awesome. Streetlight manifesto was really good. I only skanked for a few minutes because there was way too many people trying to skank at once. I had fun but i think i broke my toe. So we met this pretty boy named brian or ryan or something and i asked him to give tara his sn so he did and tara is now in love. The dirty boy i used to think is hot isnt so hot anymore now that i saw him up close and saw his missing teeth and how dirty he actually was. But he kissed tara on the cheek and so did the other boy who had a gf. Umm we saw katie m. and nick f. there and nick actually came up to me and gave me a hug and said Katie u took me to my first cool concert! and i was like aw u actually remembered that. cool. and katie was really sweet like she always is. and i met her 2 friends named tom,sean and kacy? i dont know how to spell her name but they were very nice. and then i met tara friend matt and he gave me a huge hug and kissed both sides of my cheeks and told me to feel better. He was adorable but then he started grabbing my boobs so i then it was time to get away from him. Anyway it was a fun night. Tara stayed over and in the morning we made pancakes and walked around my neighborhood and found this really huge stick that we could touch the telephone wires with. but then tara broke it. Then we walked to hazlet pharmacy and bought condoms just cause i could. and we walked to lowes then we made pictures and i made vernon valentines day cards<33 it was fun. I love my friends.
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[12 Feb 2005|11:53am] |
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Last night was awesome. commons with Megan,Zeynep,Tara,Dina,Greg,Shelby,Gerard,marygrace, chelsea and her gay friend kyle(who was adorable) I had so much fun. I was so happy to see Dina because I haven't seen her in the longest time. We went to houlihans and created chaos.It was 8th grade spilling shit all over again. It was simply delightful.
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[08 Feb 2005|06:15pm] |
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Yeah so fuck that entry about being in love I have a boyfriend who loves me back now. His name is Vernon. Who names their kid Vernon. oh well. He is very sweet and he says I have the most beautiful eyes and he makes me feel good. and I like the feeling I got when we held hands and kissed<3
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[26 Jan 2005|08:28pm] |
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I think i'm in love. As much as I don't want to be this boy has sucked me in and I can't get out. I feel like such a loser but I really don't care. He makes me feel really good. His name is Greg G. and no it's not the Greg we hang out with all the time. We met pretty much randomly. I honestly don't think i'm in the right situation to be in a relationship right now. They say wait a year before having a romantic relationship with anyone because i'm in recovery. But I can't help that I like him this much and i'm not going to deny it. I just hope I don't fuck it up like everything else. I'm really good at contradicting myself. but how can you not like a guy who send you this song(below its fragile by NIN) and says it reminds him of you. It made my heart melt. I am such a hopeless romantic idiot.
she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everything is meaningless
fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
i can't watch her slip away
i wont let you fall apart
she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
hoping someone can see
if i could fix myself i'd -
but it's too late for me
i wont let you fall apart
we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
i'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking...
it's something i have to do
i was there, too
before everything else
i was like you
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[25 Jan 2005|03:28pm] |
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I'm so pissed off right now. I need a big change. Like schoolwise. I was going crazy in my old school, and its not even about the work. I know I will get work wherever I go. I just need a change and I need you guys to support me and don't tell me that im going to fail or things like that. It really makes me feel like shit when you tell me all the negative things that can happen to me in another school. i just want you guys to be happy for me. I will probably come back when i get out of princeton house but I'm not sure what i'm going to do after that. Just don't make me feel bad please, i'm going through some really tough crap right now and i'm having a hard time getting out so please just don't say "Whatever I don't care anymore I don't see you anymore anyway" because that made me feel like crap and you know who you are. I just wish everything would go away but it never will because everything keeps living life and it isn't going to stop and wait for me. I don't know i'm such a whiney bitch.
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[23 Jan 2005|08:08pm] |
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It snowed alot yeah i said it even though its pretty obvious. but i dont have to go to school tomorow which is fun. I feel bad because tomorow is supposed to be jens last day and i wanna be there for it. hopefully she will come in tuesday though.bleh. im so bored.
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[22 Jan 2005|07:23pm] |
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I had a relapse of wed. and it sucked. I really want to get better and i want to go back to school. Princeton House is very laid back and i spend most of the day just lying on couches and talking to my new friends. but i miss school as much a i hate to admit it. well here i dont get homework so thats always good. and im only doing work for school for about and hour. so im going to the taste of chaos tour. i wish i could go on sat. to see my chemical romance but the tickets were sold out. im really happy that im going to see the used and all the other bands though. and i cant go to ska is dead because thats the day im supposed to play with tara kevin and z at the tsunami benefit. which sucks because i mean i know its for fun but i just dont want to do it. i will for my brother though because he really wants to. i dont know i feel like shit. and this feeling wont go away.
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[19 Jan 2005|08:21pm] |
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So yeah im currently in princeton house because of the depression and some other things. I dont know how its gonna end up. The people im meeting there are really fucking awesome but until i get out of there i cant actually hang out with any of them according to the rules. i miss miss toxic and gary and penyez and dina and everyone at school. it might be 4-6 weeks before i come back. I really hate what im going through right now. i just hope i can get my shit back together.
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[09 Jan 2005|03:40pm] |
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Im bored and tired. I have a headache. Im waiting for my aunt and my cousins to come over. It was a really long night I didnt get to bed till about 7:30. I have had the worst headache for a really long time. I need to actually really sleep tonight.
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[09 Jan 2005|05:32am] |
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I dont even know where to start. I really dont know how i got into this depression again. I dont understand it. I think im happy one day and the next im just fucking out of it. I talked to Greg G. most of you probably dont know him. but its so weird. I was really on the edge of completely breaking down tonight. and i would of. but then he decided to call me at the perfect time. greg isnt someone i would probably be friends with here. it was kind of luck how we met. hes 18 and a football player and you just wouldnt expect him to give a damn about me. but when i talk to him i think i relate more to him then i ever did with anyone before. hes gone through what im going through now. and to have someone who actually completely understands it is amazing. hes been through so much shit and hes learned so much. now hes helping me get through this not so good part of my life. i love how hes so outgoing but he loves that i am shy. and i love that he sang lean on me on the phone because i was crying. i love that he cares. and i love that i can tell him things i have never even told my best friends. maybe im going crazy. well actually... im pretty sure i was already crazy i dont know what that makes me now...
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[02 Jan 2005|02:57pm] |
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So for the most part this winter break has been pretty good. Im really not sure what im going to do tomorow. I guess i will go into school but just thinking about it makes me feel pretty shitty. I dont know. Over the break I went to chillies with gary zeynep greg and tara. I broke a plate at barnes and noble while me greg and gary had sex boks at the table but its ok though because greg saved our asses. umm we saw glenn at barnes and noble hes nice. umm we slept over megans house then went to see fat albert the next day. We only went to see this movie because joel was in it. With all the stuff we heard about him being in it you would think he had a big part. We were so fucking wrong. He was in it for 30 fucking seconds BUT in that 30 seconds he was pure sex. he was pretty hot. the movie was retarded though... oh and dina got to come to the movie and i missed her. so yeah then i went home. on new years eve gary and tara came over and some friends of my parents came over it was fun. The next day we went to the mall with zeynep and we went until 7 and garys brother mark picked us up. So you always see those people going really fast on the highway and swerving in and out of people. you always wonder what the hell.. now i know what its like to be in one of those cars. the end.
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[27 Dec 2004|07:15am] |
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Ok i got this new blowdryer for my hair and its seriously like the devil. everytime i try to dry my hair half the lights go out and nothing works in my room or my brothers and my parents and the computer is on but the lights down here are out? what the fuck. damn thing.
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